wtf?
I'm supposed to go help out my boy Christian modeling items in 3dmax. I find myself stuck at home with a laundry list of things to do and basically no steam to do em.
Perhaps I do suck as bad as my nagging inner voice, accuses me of being.
I remember a time when I was awesome. Seriously! I used to be able to do a lot more than I'm able to churn out these days. I was able to adopt any new thing as and when I felt like. Now... I can barely put together a bloody company profile for self promotion.
How did I get here? Where did I get so bloody fucking lazy and or inept. It's not Ariko - my week old bundle of joy who eats, poops & cries (in that order). I accept it's a bit of a shift to how things normally flow in my life. I'm free to leave the crib and be a fruitful member of planet earth.
But.
I can't get out of my funk. It's so bloody annoying! SO here I am - typing to myself. Putting my thoughts on the interwebs in a hope that this somehow spurs some sort of action.
I think this strategy of being in front of the machine is going to work. Just plant my fat butt where work could be achieved and dodge the minefield of distractions - save for this long neglected blog. Me likey the idea of having this journal of idiotic ramblings as I try to get a grip of my shit.
what is that shit you ask? I have an app - www.wegotcha.co.za that needs to be launched. I had hoped to have launched it last year - but I'm sodded by obstacles - myself being the chief one. My merchant number, still needs to be acquired. At first there was the matter of the fraud that I needed to clear. It took 2 months for clear score to do that - but now I'm failing to get over the hump with FNB.
Let today be the day I finally achieve this seemingly minor goal.
Aside from that - I have to get the DUNS number sorted out. FUCK! I am so close - but running around in circles. Why is it when I feel so close to accomplishing something - the finish line leaps a couple weeks ahead?
I'll report back. I'll tackle the bloody website for the architectural practice later. Portfolio for said practice needs doing. Construction portfolio is also on that list.
Perhaps I need more focus and longer hours. I'm such a pussy these days though. My capacity for long hours has diminished greatly. LOL - I wonder if I have ADD? Is this all too much for me? Why did I want to do it in the first place?
Oh well - whatever - lets see how this acquisition of the merchant number is going to go.
Perhaps I do suck as bad as my nagging inner voice, accuses me of being.
I remember a time when I was awesome. Seriously! I used to be able to do a lot more than I'm able to churn out these days. I was able to adopt any new thing as and when I felt like. Now... I can barely put together a bloody company profile for self promotion.
How did I get here? Where did I get so bloody fucking lazy and or inept. It's not Ariko - my week old bundle of joy who eats, poops & cries (in that order). I accept it's a bit of a shift to how things normally flow in my life. I'm free to leave the crib and be a fruitful member of planet earth.
But.
I can't get out of my funk. It's so bloody annoying! SO here I am - typing to myself. Putting my thoughts on the interwebs in a hope that this somehow spurs some sort of action.
I think this strategy of being in front of the machine is going to work. Just plant my fat butt where work could be achieved and dodge the minefield of distractions - save for this long neglected blog. Me likey the idea of having this journal of idiotic ramblings as I try to get a grip of my shit.
what is that shit you ask? I have an app - www.wegotcha.co.za that needs to be launched. I had hoped to have launched it last year - but I'm sodded by obstacles - myself being the chief one. My merchant number, still needs to be acquired. At first there was the matter of the fraud that I needed to clear. It took 2 months for clear score to do that - but now I'm failing to get over the hump with FNB.
Let today be the day I finally achieve this seemingly minor goal.
Aside from that - I have to get the DUNS number sorted out. FUCK! I am so close - but running around in circles. Why is it when I feel so close to accomplishing something - the finish line leaps a couple weeks ahead?
I'll report back. I'll tackle the bloody website for the architectural practice later. Portfolio for said practice needs doing. Construction portfolio is also on that list.
Perhaps I need more focus and longer hours. I'm such a pussy these days though. My capacity for long hours has diminished greatly. LOL - I wonder if I have ADD? Is this all too much for me? Why did I want to do it in the first place?
Oh well - whatever - lets see how this acquisition of the merchant number is going to go.
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