setbacks and failure

There is a lot not going right. I'm wondering if I know what I'm doing anymore. And that sucks. You should always believe in yourself. Right?
But it's hard to persist when all seams to be weighing in the favor of failure. Some stupid quote keeps trying to make its way to the surface - how does it go? Failure is success in progress? I think - something like that - but it sure does suck.
It took me several days to deal with this...
1. The wall fell over again. It's beyond weak. and It's supposed to be super strong. Someone fucked up and I feel I should have somehow seen it coming. 300K spent and the wall is falling. I'm not happy.
2. the electric gate is still fucked. I think the best would be to get a whole new gate motor. This is clearly not working.
3. The Fridge is still freezing everything in the fridge. boooooooooo!!!
4. I'm not scared to make any moves as the fuck ups are overshadowing any triumphs I might have gained.

I have had a whole day to stew since I started to jot down my feelings - and I'm feeling a lot better today. I feel like I'm under the right kind of pressure and I'm down with what needs doing.

I'll reserve it for the next post.